Reclaim the Night, Repaint the Past

2009-09-18T04:25:00.000-07:00

i dont think i have the mood for raya..
I have the baju kurung which i have to come out with my own money which cost about $60

Now, I dont have the money to buy my own shoes, pants or the whole set..
Maybe Ill just stick to my rotten shoe for another year

2009-09-16T01:09:00.000-07:00

under the bridge- red hot chilli peppers

Sometimes I feel

Like I dont have a partner

Sometimes I feel

Like my only friend

Is the city I live in

The city of angel

Lonely as I am

Together we cry

I drive on her streets

cause shes my companion

I walk through her hills

cause she knows who I am

She sees my good deeds

And she kisses me windy

I never worry

Now that is a lie

I dont ever want to feel

Like I did that day

Take me to the place I love

Take me all the way

Its hard to believe

That theres nobody out there

Its hard to believe

That Im all alone

At least I have her love

The city she loves me

Lonely as I am

Together we cry

I dont ever want to feel

Like I did that day

Take me to the place I love

Take me all the way

Under the bridge downtown

Is where I drew some blood

Under the bridge downtown

I could not get enough

Under the bridge downtown

Forgot about my love

Under the bridge downtown

I gave my life away

2009-09-13T23:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i just bought this 2 box of teas. It cost $5 each.. Containing about 25 sachets.. It was on offer.. bck then it was $5.70

in school, it was selling about.. $1.50 for just 1 tea bag and they will make for you.. thts a big difference.

just now i took my bike prac 8.. i failed.. got 34 points.. all on posture, positioning, blind spot and lane changing.. i didnt expect tht it would be tht hard..

2009-09-11T22:28:00.000-07:00

ever felt like climbing naked..?

after a day of hard work
this is what you get if you mix ur chalk

2009-09-10T21:44:00.000-07:00

im thinking here and there.. bike license.. reports.. getting a bike..
hurry up.. get it done already

no mood to converse

2009-08-30T21:48:00.000-07:00

there something not right about me..
I know ive change...
it all started when I stop climbing for awhile..
then poof..
i lost alot of thing.. beside my climbing skills dropped..
the one and only thing worthy things that Ive lost, close friends..
I feel like I dont have any..
No one called me to hang out or so ever..
Most of the time, Im at home being a potato couch..
I spend my weekends at home this days..
If i go out, I go out alone..

this is just what im going through this days..

the only person that I could talk to in RC is syahmi

2009-08-30T11:28:00.000-07:00

hmm where do I start..
firstly..
weekends , i did nothing..
Im a potato coach.. same goes to shabirin
sleep wake up.. and sleep.. turn on the TV

but on sunday night,
i just realised there is bay beats..
its almost too late as i missed fri and sat

After buke, I head down..
reach there around 9..
first person to tap me on my shoulder was fad..
yeah..
then head down the merchandise store.. there was this collection of macbeth shoes
its was wow.. very tempting

head down to the crowd.. N I saw my cuz.. juraimi.. he was with aizat , joyce and his fiance.
I stick with the group till they leave..
the band I manage to catch was embassy of phillipines..
punk rock and their performace was great..
after tht we left.. joyce will be working the next day we she need to get back early
so we left together..

now i just found out tht sally is my cuz..
shes related to juraimi.. -.-
things happens for a reason huh?

2009-08-26T22:32:00.000-07:00

Its been long since i last climb..
ok
movies to watch..

district 9 is okay..
not bad.. its long and draggy..
it has a sad ending =]

Up is a must watch movie...
Its sad to see the old man life chain but its great =]

beth cooper, dont watch it at the movies as it not as great at it seemed

I love you man
is a great movie.. a story line which not many will expect it to be..
a guy who dont have any guy fren. which is looking for one..

besides that.. nowadays.. i felt awkward and left behind (as perusual)
things change..
ppl change
ive change
skip this

went to some dinner at shatec yesterday..
the theme was haunted school
it states tht the event starts at 6
I was there at 6.15 and i was the first guest -.-
The event started about around 7.15
Glen and evan came at 7.45 -.-
the host gave a brief..
We're going go through the haunted house and stuff
bt they do state tht at level 3, its really haunted.. the teachers will leave the school before 8
the stairs and the lift is really "dirty

I believe about the stairs.. cause when then tour us.. I felt the cold shivers when i climb up the stairs...
the haunted hause wasnt scary.. it was funny actually.. it was really dark.. when glens see a person, he goes to tht person n says, 'touch me, touch me, ouh you dont want to touch me.'
when a girl screams he says, 'wow, tht sounds hot.'

at least I had company..

2009-08-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

Itg been long since I last studied..
like really study..
well I spend 3 hrs practicing digital electronics..
from P1 to 6
It feels great though but too late. I should hve did tht way earlier..
I could get my A's

NDP

2009-08-10T22:35:00.000-07:00

Basically I went to safra since fad told me that if you wore red on that day. Ull get the half price entrance fee which is $5.50

I was late as it was a last minute thing. I dont have anything to do, so I went there. Reach there around 3. The place closes at 5.30

We went to Bugis to have our dinner..

Then we had sheesha

My new shoes.

size 6

it was torturing. Too tight and I cant even walk with it

I have a problem about the shoes..

how am I going to season this shoes..

2009-08-06T18:31:00.000-07:00

hahha.. this one wierd group in facebook..

2009-08-03T23:28:00.001-07:00

this was last month

2009-08-03T18:13:00.000-07:00

2009-08-03T05:39:00.000-07:00

last fri, heiqal suggested to play soccer at the very last minute. We played, most of us didnt put our shoes on. At the end of the day. Most of us had a huge blister on both of our feet. Its that bad and painful especially after cutting of the excess skin.

After that, zack send me to CA. Most of the shoe sizes are gone. I wanna get Pearl but there isnt any size left. So i get Top Gun. Which is size 6. That small, bt i have to bare with the pain for quite some time inorder for it to season.

Went to arab street for sheesha.. Me zack jarir and chen yee

got sick when i got home. Flu is on and off. By night its ok. But when i was about to slp. the fever got worst. that caused me sleepless. Eyes were closed but im not in dream land.
Temperature was 39.1 deg cel.

Flu was unbearable. Keep wiping till i have a scratch my nose.

2009-07-31T00:06:00.001-07:00

hmm.. i hate aerodynamics for now...
the questions asked confusing..
the team did work..
but didnt wrote down the answers..
basically i cnt review the answer and how am I going to understand
team uploaded the ppt late ans still how am I going to understand
rushing rushing..
In deep shit during presentation..

stresss for today
stress about the rock pillars vouchers..

Prac 7

2009-07-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

ok.. last wed is my bike practical.. prac 7
Failed cause the instructor told me to lead.. I lead and I left teh instrutor behind by far.
So he cant evaluate me cause he cnt see me..
How stupid of me but it felt good..
hahah

next prac would be on sun at 2pm..
ill be ready by then =]

2009-07-28T09:06:00.000-07:00

tht girl is really really irritating..
dont know her
dont bother

2009-07-16T23:00:00.000-07:00

my fingers feel pain.. my elbow feels pain....

2009-07-04T10:39:00.001-07:00

its time for me to cut down climbing.. once a week will do..

2009-07-01T01:55:00.000-07:00

Semua hilang seketika...
saat perasaan ku sedang kau genggam,
ku tahu itu hanya...
rasa takut yang tak pasti,
dari diri mu.

Tapi mengapa,
kau masih saja ada di samping ku,
tak menjauh...
Andai saja kau lepaskan aku..

Engkau tak pernah
biarkan ku sendiri...
ku ingin menjadi,
diri ku kembali....

Ku cuba tuk melupakan,
semua tentang diri mu...
tiap diri mu,
saat aku menutup mat,
bayang mu selalu ada...
di dalam benak ku...

Tapi masih saja,
kau tak pergi juga...
ada di hatiku,
tak menjauh....

Andai saja kau lepaskan aku.....

dan kau tak pernah,
biarkan ku sendiri...
ku ingin menjadi diri ku kembali.........
kau tak pernah biarkan ku sendiri..
ku ingin menjadi diri ku kembali..........

hati yang terluka,
kini kan terus menjadi kenangan hidup ku....

its too late now

2009-06-30T19:05:00.000-07:00

Ive been happy this days
Im all hype to studying
Things do go well
went to dover on mon and apparently, not much ppl turned up cause there have something important to attend to.
Well we went back and firoz actually drove me home.. thank you =]
went to sch on tues and shermaine didnt turn up for sch on both days. When i read her blog, she said she was H1N1 positive.

I sat beside her on last fri, she told me she was sick. No fever but got sore throat all tht. She has a fren who have H1N1 n still meet her. I told her, nothing will happen to her, if it does ill be dead cause ill be infected. Well im in dead shit now.

The whole class is on LOA. The RP guys called me, told me to stay indoors n I said yeah yeah but I was busy watching transformers =]

Transformers was nice, messy fights cause u cant keep track of whose hitting who. Its like blurry. Action pack all the way but it didnt end with a good ending. The fallen fought with octomus for maybe 5-10 mins. That was like hmm okaaayyy..

Follow these instructions

Do exactly as I do

Lean your shoulders forward

Let your hands slide over to my side

Move your body closer

Let your heart meet mine

Love is the harmony

Desire is the key

Love is the melody

Now sing it with me

Come a little closer

Take a look at me

This light is so obvious

I want you to see

Come a little closer

Look me in the eye

You'll be the rythm and I'll be the beat

Then I'll be the rythm and you'll be the beat

And love, the shoreline, where you and I meet

2009-06-27T22:04:00.001-07:00

at least a few thing that made me happy..

Being a pillon.. on sajuis bike..
he ride like a mad man..
i calculated, he actually beat 4 red lights..
horn most of the time =]
I no longer have fears of falling for now

It made me smile after reading ariff's after such a long time
he never failed to make me laugh
he actually made my sunday morning...

i wanna watch transformers..

2009-06-27T21:19:00.000-07:00

ok firstly.. i really think that i should cut down hanging out with u guys cause im not appreaciated as wht i can see.. n its like most of the time.. if u thought that ive change, well its you are the one whos change..when they need to get some stuff, ill acompany them. If i need the stuff, they leave me alone.. sadly shabirin left me too.. thanks alot times ten

go enjoy with your new friends

I didnt treat u well as before, cause you never realised
I have to put a fake front and supporting you
cared about others and not myself
I thought you knew but in the end,
erm...
nvm, fill in the blanks

2009-06-19T19:38:00.000-07:00

Im a fool for love...
I shouldnt have fall in love at all
Im weak at this
Even if I gave all my best, it wouldnt make any diff
I will end up the same as before
No matter how nice I am
I knew that this would happen yet I give it risk

I had enough of this heartache
Being hurt like most of the time
Trying to be strong but I couldnt
I dont think that I could change anything back
All hopes gone

I have to move on
I shall not steal glance
I shall not be near
I shall not have any urge to start a conversation
I have to destroy those feelings in me
Dont ever think of what if...
cause you know that nothing good will happen.... azmi azmi tsk tsk

Should I smile cause we're still friends or should I cry cause we cant be anything more?
I thought youre the one who puts the smile on my face
I thought youre the who saves me when im about to fall
youre just another tear that I shed

2009-06-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

I was shocked that u sat beside me.. I feel like.. wow .. hmm okay.. we chat.. but not that much.. but at least its more than before =]
thts the best half hour tht happens after training so far =]
I know its normal.. just like friends but its something to me..

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
She only a friend, and nothing else-.-
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying she's just a bud,
But deep inside,
you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet her eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that she's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for her to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being her boy is an impossible wish...

The worst feeling you'll ever feel is sitting next to the person who means the world to you knowing that you mean nothing to them

2009-06-18T20:47:00.001-07:00

No one noticed..

2009-06-18T09:25:00.000-07:00

I dont feel special. The only time i feel great is when youre beside me which is only 5 mins. Its my fault cause I didnt put any effort to chase you but I did put an effort not to get hurt. Had to remind myself every single time. Not to get high hopes X 10.

Just go with the flow, I just feel that she doesnt have any feelings towards me by seing how she reacts and stuff.

Day 3, still no cravings for ciggies. No cough, slight flu. The worst has yet to come.

I drink coke just to avoid smoking =]
It will less the craving n divert my attention.

2009-06-17T22:16:00.000-07:00

Lykke Li- Let It Fall

So I weep

In my weakest moments I weep

'Cause I like the way, tears fit my cheek

In my darkest moments I cry

Oh how I love the way, tears suits my face

I like it salt

I like it wet

Like my makeup in a mess

So I cry hard

Let it fall

And I won't stop until my tears are all shed

So I weep

In my joyous moments I moan

'Cause it feels so good when I let my water flow

Drip drop, and I cannot stop

Can't stop, no I said no

Drip drop, and I cannot stop

Can't stop I cry for you, cry for you

I cry because I cannot help it

So it runs, yes it falls

And ain't no stopping at all

I like it salt

I like it wet

Like my makeup in a mess

So I cry hard

Let it fall

And I won't stop until my tears are all shed

So I weep

Let it fall

2009-06-17T02:08:00.001-07:00

Dont care dont bother Don care don’t bother..
I don’t need a shoulder to lean on
I don’t need someone to hear my stories to
Ur presence’s there but ur mind’s not even there
I don’t think u care about me anymore.
You’ve found someone new..
Give him all the attention you want..
I don’t care anymore..

I believe that there’s a reason behind all this.. Its my mistake at the start.. That causes this things to happen.. If I could reverse back in time, I think I wouldn’t change anything cause this is supposed to happen.. Maybe you ask yourself.. Are you willing to give this up just for her very own happiness? Your close friend who puts the smile on your face. It might not be fair but lifes never fair.. Well giving up for a friend it is.. then i will.. If I don’t, things would just be the same.. shes there but she wouldn’t talk much.. When your down or sick, she wouldn’t notice..

You’re supposed to be my sis yet you’re just like a friend

2009-06-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

Be strong Be strong

From 3am till now.. Im having a bad tummy ache... The tummy hurts so bad till im addicted going to the toilet for very half hour.. I didnt what I hate till Im like this..

Im drink Tea without sugar.. No choice, have to.. I have UT at 4.. Damn shitty .. Not schooling and theres UT.

So, why do I want to quit smoking.. Is it for a girl? I couldnt answer this myself, its never easy to quit smoking. Many gave up the first week or the first month.. I think I can last ll of this.. Im doing this so that I could set a god example. So I can prove that its not difficult to quit.. n this time, i cant quit due to a girl, if i do.. if the relationship turn out bad.. i would eventually start smoking..

Well I would have a lot of free time.. Basically, I dont know what to do.. i slept in class during break 2...i didnt go down.. thts how much free time I have..

ive been eating alot nowadays.. tht is to distract me from taking a puff and yes, i predict that would become fat next year..e

Approaching Day 2

2009-06-16T04:29:00.001-07:00

In the morning, Damn shagggg.. slept in the bus.. the bus driver woke me up.. when he already park the bus in the bus bay..

Day 1 - it went well =]

Totally free.. Having literally nothing to do. Slept in class during second break and didnt went down..

My fren told me, youre going to be fat.. Cause eating will distract me from smoking =]

theres still a difference.. bt nvm..

just wondering how if ur girlfriend has a twin sister.. how would u different shape which is which..
you do know that 1 wrong guess, you would be in total deep shit..

Lately, i often bump on to her.. Normal, when i bump on to her, i panic and didn’t know what to do.. Didnt say hi cause she didn’t notice that i was there and she was with her friends. Didnt want to disturb. I don’t think she bother anyway..

Cold Turkey

2009-06-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

Its not easy to get a someone a gift.. you have to go back and forth a couple of times.. i went to cityhall to get the shoes..

then -.- , it isnt there at all.. I have to go vivo.. yeah.. troublesome, took the mrt change at outram n stuff..

I got finally, so less stress for me =]

Bouldering season is over.. So im can slack for now.. climb normal.. train n prepare for next year..

well things change nowdays.. its happening right infront of my eyes.. i dont mind abt tht.. its just me i guess..

i dont actually get the right treatment as before. its diff i dont get the usual response from text message.. nowdays i get lesser n sometimes none.. bck then, u were always there when i need u.. but for now, it drop alot.. like really alot.. i really miss u, but what can i do.. u used to be the closest friend i ever had in RP. the one who I put ahead than anyone else.

im used to it already.. I just need to avoid thinking about it.. shouldnt be emo cause its not worth it.

I must be the normal me..having like a mindset like, no response, its ok=].. like dont think of anything..

Why do i care so much when I shouldnt

Im going give it another try of quiting smoking.. I can do it.. n everyone thinks tht i couldnt.. Im all up to face the cold turkey.. heavy coughs, non stop flu.. Ive face the shitty moments for the last few weeks.. Well it couldnt get any worst well its already at its worst.. i ready to face 6 mnths of torture and at its worst stage.

I will strt quitting the right time, its either this sun or tmr

2009-06-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

actually.. most of time..as u see im sitting far..
i dont dare to beside you.. im afraid tht you dont like it..
cause im like suke menyelit n stuff..

Actually.. im the type where like to manje manje n stuff.. but eh ...(fill in the blanks)
I dont know why.. it just feels different... dont seem like before

wierd thing.. i was so shy.. till i dont dare to say happy bdae -.-
whts wrong with me.. never felt like this before.. wanna go to her n say but i dont dare..
when im beside her, worst.. cant even say out at all.. Now i know how shit i am at this kind of stuff..

Well im going to sell my hp.. not for my own needs... bt ppl may say it stupid.. maybe i dont mind.. at least i didnt something.. i dont think i would regret as.. its normal for me as things dont usually right.. its happening eversince.. tht happiness i shared with..

Wishes
a shoulder to lean on
much love n hugs
held hand n lead me the way
always there when i need you
by my side when im sick
at the end of the day,
you neverfail to make me smile

June 12

2009-06-12T01:32:00.000-07:00

June 12

Astreal

Come

Take me by the hand

Lead me down to where you know

I want to be today

If I ask you, would you stay?

If I plead with you, would you come back my way?

I want you to know, why I can't let you go

It's just this thing in my head that holds me down

The way that I am, when you come around

I hope you'll understand, someday

Stay

For sometime again

Let me hold you once tonight

So you won't slip away

Tell me you feel love within.

Tell me all the promises, you told me to believe in.

I want you to know, why I can't let you go

It's just this thing in my head that holds me down

The way that I am, when you come around

I hope you'll understand, someday

"Square One"

2009-06-10T20:14:00.000-07:00

"Square One"

You're in control, is there anywhere you wanna go?

You're in control, is there anything you wanna know?

The future's for discovering

The space in which we're travelling

From the top of the first page

To the end of the last day

From the start in your own way

You just want somebody listening to what you say

It doesn't matter who you are

Under the surface trying to break through

Deciphering the codes in you

I need a compass, draw me a map

I'm on the top, I can't get back

Whoa whoa

The first line on the first page

To the end of the last page

From the start in your own way

You just want somebody listening to what you say

It doesn't matter who you are

You just want

Somebody listening to what you say

Oh, you just want somebody listening to what you say

It doesn't matter who you are

Is there anybody out there who

Is lost and hurt and lonely too

Are they bleeding all your colours into one?

and if you come undone

As if you've been run through

Some catapult it fired you

You wonder if your chance will ever come

Or if you're stuck in square one

ReUnited

2009-06-10T17:59:00.000-07:00

Things didn’t went well a first.. I was damn happy after that..

I had my family dinner at sakura.. Buffet.. I didn’t eat much.. was so stuffy.. They are smart having their menu with most baked mussels and oysters. I really love minted mussels =]

one thing I’m sure of, " we don’t even know love is right in front us.. we neglect them till one day, u realised that how could you be that stupid." Rathna

well never been in this situation where my whole family is so supportive.. I had good advices.. From a well experience lady... ehem..

I didn’t actually sleep.. I slept in the bus for 30 mins then done.. spent the whole night with Sha.. Talking and talking.. Laughing to each other.. Smile.. Stare at the ceiling.. Sharing what we’ve missed out.. He did consider changing to a better person.. A person with less anger and more laid back...

2009-06-09T22:35:00.000-07:00

Well certainly, I hate myself.. I trust someone very easily.. yet...
Sometimes, friends or family could just take that happiness away from you.. some isn’t intentional and some only concern about themselves.. Well greed could jeopardise

You know that you’re having a problem and then u found the truth.. guessing tht its going to be fine.. Well, a new one showed up.. well it linked to the past.. hes a fren.. He don’t have the intention so.. but that is he’s way.. n he’s way may change the result in the end... do you know that history may repeat.. but in a different way..

It’s scary to see you in that condition.. i feel helpless.. felt that what can I do.. I know nothing.. I could only be there by your side.. Only aidi and aidil knows everything.. Heartbeats n stuff.. i know only some basic stuff, what you shouldn’t do..

Well.. Aidi spot my weakest point.. well.. i was to about to give up.. Cause I’m too concerned about her.. Anything happens, ill be there.. this not from my brain.. its from my heart.. Well I shouldn’t be thinking so much and stuff.. but there’s too much challenges.. One after another.. N I knew nothing.. Clueless, so how am I going to react.. So what’s the first thing that comes to my mind?

a common word to hear.. Patience ... i needed that... had that patience in me for a long time.. That patience of my is fading.. Somehow.. I just don’t know why.. But it is.. Depending how and what situation it is..

Understanding? That’s not about it.. We just know part if the detail.. We have our own opinions too.. Well you should listen up and stop being such a thick head.. Well I’ve spot most of the things about you.. what are the ways and how you handle stuffs.. From what I see from it, it’s not such a big deal after all.. I guess, it’s just you and partly of hers..

At the end of the day, I’m still a nobody.. There’s no one I should trust... Not even myself.. I help them but they don’t help me due to favouritism.. Its normal.. cause I’m not that fun.. so that are not that close to me.. So when they have something special.. Which is limited, I guess I would be the last few to be invited.. don’t u dare say that well be there cause we are friends...when there’s a free ride,ull leave me walking to the mrt myself..

I’ll stick with.. Doing thing on my own.. Go to CA by myself.. Slack with my family.. n call aidi out..

Hate me for what I am..
I’m speaking out

hppy bdae dad

2009-06-01T20:41:00.000-07:00

cnt wait till this fri..

my father is back from korea and its his bdae this fri =]

were going to have a family buffet..hahaha..
its been long since we last have dinner together as a family
i miss those times when we had fun talking and laughing..

hmm.. i guess bill is on my sis..haha.. hmm where were going to hae dinner then?

savior

2009-06-01T20:30:00.000-07:00

my adik have been really good to me..
she was there when i need her..
she even cheer me up when im down..
so no i got 2 savior in my life ..
aidi and my adik =]
thanks

im still down this days.. the down period.. its normal though... things seems to turn out different in your eye.. wht about the actual thing itself? is it happening just like wht i thought?

2009-06-01T11:42:00.001-07:00

wht is there in me?

i dont feel special?

wht do I differ from others?

others are more better than me.. u wld be more comfortable with them

at the end of the day, she falls for another guy

2009-05-31T21:01:00.000-07:00

went to CA..

for the first route, i injure myself..

at my left knee.. the swollen is like a the bone is shifted out abit...hahah

Well after tht went to esplanade.. there this japanese band.. cool and ehtusiactic..

he damn good with his showmanship.. a band with their trumpets and sexophone..

alot of people dncing do their music the way he did.. the people dancing is mostly slightly elderly people.. i guess they are a great fan to this band (lugi)..

maybe this days. i hate ppl when they say.. lets makan.. then my face started to change..haha..

yeah.. didnt have any money to spend.. tight budget.. so azmi its time to get a new job.. tht will cover my weekends.. and so I wouldnt to so much and i could afford something..

well sometimes.. the truth hurts.. but you have to know it.. sooner or one they youll come across it..

2009-05-31T09:14:00.000-07:00

outing at city hall.. we had funand laughter with zaini's tk tau duduk diamness..
and he's lameness.. its cool.. shared our problem.. well it helps though, what we face through all that.. we have to find our own solution

angelines bdae, well we smash her with this choc cake which really look like shit.. for this time, we dont have enough money to buy a bigger cake... Budget period..

2009-05-27T18:20:00.000-07:00

well u cant hear my music.. insulting wht music is turned on and stuff...
well not everyone likes ur music too.. cant you just bare with it...
ur mature enough but ur not acting like one..

your the one who spoil the armegeddon yet you didnt own up..
well must I clean make everything work.. having tht armegeddon and how it started..
n sudden you finally blew it.. what have you contributed? have you made something useful to this IG?

2009-05-25T23:53:00.000-07:00

i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds i wanna go arnolds

=]

2009-05-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

yeap.. we won the prize from pumpfest.. and it actually cost alot..

intermediate men isolation..

there this uncle painting all of this with he own hands.. like slowly n slowly.. till its like perfect..

i didnt know he was tht pro..

well today was me aidi syafiq went to velocity to take our prize..

mat headware.. its another brand for buff..

then with that receipt, we went to claim our free gift.. we got a waterproff camera..

cool huh.. then we get to play this remote control boat.. well its quite difficult to get throught the obstacles, well its fun.. we got a note book.. its nice..

we went subway..using the $10 gift voucher
sukashi joined us after that.. we went to cold starage as i gota nother $10 voucher..

its stressful to choose the stuff, well we took all of it chocs..

we head to beach road as aidi needs to get her lil sis bdae gift..

its was damn warm there.. i was like perpiring..haha

okok i know its been awhile since ive been to this places...we had our dinner at there.. soup tolang.. i got corn shake..haha..okok its nice..

head to bugis.. as sukashi wants to meet his fren.. i look for this book..

90 day- geisha.. it cost about $32.. damn ex but dont worry.. ill come for u..

2009-05-23T02:48:00.000-07:00

im dead bored im dead bored.. i have totally nothing to do..

failed my rtt..
haha
wht do u expect.. they ask me the wierd type of questions
so i guess i wasnt lucky today..
i hate weekends as i totally have no plans..
what can i do...

pumpfest

2009-05-21T20:43:00.000-07:00

Pumpfest was the best.. maybe cause i won..haha..

But the prizes are shitty..

afew vouchers and one small deuter sling bag..

Bt i think ill love the sling bag..

Ok, heres the standing

novice women= fatin 2nd

novice men= azmi 3rd

Team= climb republic! 3rd

azmi fatin aidiruddin zaid

CA

2009-05-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was rather broing for the start.. After that it was fun.. haha..
okok.. i paid my bills... $100 to internet $100 to hp bill

Went out.. and kept smiling for no reason..
actually there is a reason.. Well you know me well enough..
Im the one who cant stop smiling when u enter the room=]

Hmm today, I went to the library to search some macdonalds book.. well i did manage to find the book but its reference. I was lucky to get the code number and I can get it directly at woodlands regional library.. huehuehue
Went to see the the new shopping center beside bugis street.. well its huge but the shops are not really that interesting.. Bt the food place is nice..
sadly she have to leave ... we didnt have lunch together..
hmmph.. well this things happen to me often..

Well i went to CA after that.. I did some hard moves.. ok.. not that hard...ahahha.
well its been a long time i havent climb at CA.. so my standard drop too
well i can complete routes.. and it was great..
Well im bad at roof.. cause have to heel hook then heel hook then heel hook..
so that makes hooks= heel^3
my core stregnth is that bad.. cant control

Well irwan saw this gigabyte canister left behind.. a huge one.. and its like never been used..
he gave it to me.. thanks strong guy =]

We went to doughby ghaout to eat... aizat ask for this girl no... and that girl is 19-.-
thats all for today..

you know what melts me

tht cute smile of yours

2009-05-09T00:36:00.000-07:00

well everything is ok at the moment..
hmm the year ones, i see alot of them are strong..
stronger than my badge..
there is alot of pretty girls..hahah
and there are irritating ones like nadia's fren..

its a saturday in its boring...
going to ngaji soon..
maybe after that, asia =]

shitty

2009-05-07T23:09:00.000-07:00

im feel so lazy.. no mood..
pumpfest is coming...
feels shitty about it.. lose die.. win happy..
but lose is lose..haha..
have to compose myself..
get ready to burst everything out during the comp

potato couch

2009-05-05T20:22:00.000-07:00

I send in my Project scope yesterday..
I tried to seach for the macdonalds book, and look where there pointed where i could get it,
national library but only under reference.. wth
Its ok.. I have the net which give the vital information that I need...

Im having a lot of problems nowadays..
How do feel when ur mum stole the whole money from your dads pay and run away with it...
Under Pressure

I might heading to the national library later but i dead lazy..
I feel like im a patato couch..
Lazy to go training..

Time check
11.25am

Hair Loss

2009-05-04T08:06:00.000-07:00

I set my blog to private..
I dont want to create trouble through misunderstandings and stuff..
I had enough n and lazy to settle evrything
So yeap mini comp got first by luck..
Just cut my hair..
It looks wierd cause my hair is already thin and he made it more thinner..
when giving me a hair wash, he gave me a head message.
It was wierd cause he never done that before..
Its more wierd as hes already soft and you know.,
I was the only customer but never, ill think positive..

So i think im going to write the title for PP which is

How to improve Macdonalds quality?

PP

2009-04-29T08:48:00.000-07:00

I got my very first A from a shitty module, haha.. aircraft instrument.
Well, last week i got C well, i call that a balance.

I didnt listen the the compulsory briefing, I was busy playing prison break on my hp. All i know is, PP will start on 13 May and end on 8 of october..
I dont know any shit and I dont know where to start. The briefing never tell of give sufficient detail. They say refer to this website and dont do on biography. There, how shitty is that. 2000 words as minimum is like jaw dropping. I cant bull shit as it have to be professional. I think I have bad english, So how unprofessional I can be.

I guess, I think ill be doing on Nestle. Kids choice, hahaa. So healthy brand I hope its easy and the website doesnt give enough detail. Its better than aerospace companies as I dont even know anything. So good night

So less climb for me, its time for more mugging.. (PS. i wont be attending training on wednesdays)

Time check, 11.54pm

I hate tues

2009-04-28T07:20:00.000-07:00

I think i dont really like aircraft instrument module.. I always get shitty results and performance..
Presentation always get stuck, Didnt cover much points...
Stress in everyway..

SO tmr im not schooling but have to attend this compulsary talk at 11.30-12.30
I know...WTH
waste my 1 hr...

Nowdays, I see many pretty girls when I go to any places.. Im like wahhh
One thing that spoils the image..
Her boyfren is a mat... arrghh
God must be crazy..
So does that means..
i derive with an aswer..
I SHOULD BE A MAT..
then i could have a pretty gf..wahahah

okok crap crap...
I believe maybe sadness will lead to happiness eventually?
nahh.. it will lead to drugs..ahahah
okok... skip topic

we are suppose to vote the captain, vice cap and secretary on mon..
So my vote is.. syahmi cap, aidi vice cap, secretary,wai yong

I just join a new IG.. Culinary IG..
hahaha
i wanna cook
its like once a month.. maybe on thurs or tues... better..
plus we dont even need to pay..cool

sleepy

2009-04-27T09:38:00.000-07:00

I dont want to see my phone bill... hahaha Its been mnths i havent paid my bill..
its 200..
Im like wow... That means, I cant spent much for the coming 2 mnths..
My internet bill is 150.. I know 4 months didnt pay its like waiting for the loan shark to come..
So far, I can bond with the class.. getting well.. Im not that quiet... Tmr is SLA..
Im not that excited for it...

I should stay away as I find theres no point
I going to the lab tmr.. during 2nd meeting, sounds troblesome to me..
This mnth, I would be very busy.. SLA , Pumpfest, RTT
Money money... pls appear infront of me..
I wanna settle my bills quickly and pay for the comp to..
Its 12.46am... tranfering songs (above and beyond)... damn huge.. 1 song=10mins of tranfering..
-.-

Now im addicted to this raggae song.. which is doo doo- job2do
sounds cool... its more cooler when ur at krabi waiting for ur turn to climb..

This monday is the captain nomation for the comittee..Im lucky not to get involved.. So that means less responsibility.. Slack and have fun =]

2009-04-21T08:28:00.000-07:00

I just feel down..
maybe after a couple of teasing from others..
I dont find it a joke.. its rather of a critisizm..
Im trying to bare all this..
Hope tht it will get over fast..

Im going to get a hair cut soon...
Just feel tht its necessary..
For some reason i just dont look alike as HIM..
Or ill be the next joke

2009-04-20T22:36:00.000-07:00

My performance is down this days.. due to much of getting laugh at..
Hate it
hate it much more

I presented badly today.. contents are shallow..
I didnt talk much.. A sudden mind jamm

I should have done more research..
I dont know much stuff about planes..

Krabi

2009-04-18T20:54:00.000-07:00

I know a mat when i see's one

hahaha... hmm krabi was shitty.. I didnt feel the awesomeness when i climb natural wall..

to me its way harder.. as i took most of time time feeling and figuring out wher to hold and thinking whts the next move..

6A is hard..

Im the shittiest high wall climber is RP...

I must admit n cant deny..

even im afraid to go for the next move...

hmm..

besides tht i have fun.. its more like a holiday..

i climb less..

enjoy more...

i didnt buy alot of stuff.. as i dont have much money..

When i came back, i thought I was happy but think again.. hmmph..

lets move on..

hmm..

yea.. lest climb =]

ps. i got beats Top Gun..muahahah

check list

2009-04-09T10:50:00.000-07:00

im going to krabi by 6pm.. yeah..haha..

3 old t shirts- checked use n throw
2 casual t's- checked
3 shorts- checked
3 old undies- checked use n throw
sndles- checked
tooth brush- checked
small towel- checked
30 caribiner-checked
4 atc-checked
hp charger-checked
jacket-checked

ill be backed on the 19th =]

when time slows down

2009-04-06T09:15:00.000-07:00

there 2 fall.. one from lead climbing.. one from boulder..
when i try to fall at lead.. its hard to let go..
but the moment u fall from lead climbing..
its like slow at the moment.. n its fast..
the wierd thing is..
i fall from boulder, doing crazy moves..
jumping to grab another tile..
it feeling is rather fun..
its like.. time slows down..
ur like swimming down..
i almost break my arm.. as i wanted to push away as i was really falling with one of my hand to support..
i realised tht its wrng, so i quickly bend my arm to break the fall..
well i didnt complete but its a nice experiece...
im the type whos afraid of height...
I managed to over come for 5 mins =]

fri fri

2009-04-04T21:43:00.000-07:00

hmm been lazy this days.. haha..
bored..
ppl been cutting queue and leaving me behind..
i guess life is never fair...
hmm..im going to krabi this fri..
i feel tht something is missing..
i dont know wht is it..

can you figure out wht is it?

and so..
my father is going to the states next month..
and.. it feels different...

2009-04-01T10:41:00.001-07:00

ah.. shit... got into trouble just now.. hmm..
because of one day it leads to a tragedy..
its not i cant feaced this..
its just tht i dont know how to explain..
sure.. maybe at tht time it was my mistake..
bt after tht..
i didnt contact u.. cause im doing the wrong thing..
now shit happens..
maybe sch starts, something may go wrong..
it may end up to something really bad..

2009-03-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

ok , i havewnt post for awhile.. i did badly for boulder active.. i got 17 out of 100...
I didnt make it to the final.. all because of one route.. i didnt put it all my best..
now.. i must focused on a few things.. going to krabee on 9 april.. so i have to put aside $300.. which is just nice.. it can only last for basic stuff.. which means i cant enjoy or over spent..
I have to think about my bike license too.. which is my rtt is on 18 april.. i know..
i came late.. last time.. and i cant take the rtt on tht day..

2009-03-10T22:31:00.000-07:00

9th

2009-03-09T23:14:00.000-07:00

Updates about wht happen.. At gravical, i join (open mens), I know, its crazy.. Im just a biginner(novice)...

I only complete one route and another i only touch the bonus tile..

I could complete the last route if only my toes can jamm into the first tile... It took me ages to start =(

I got 9th position.. If i got 8th, I could go into the finals.. But im not up for it.. I was demoralised by my performance...

The next day, I went my relatives wedding... one thing thts diff is.. they dont have a cake... bt cup cakes for a wedding cake...its a beuaty to my eyes... kinda of unique... and its held in a community center... with a variety of foods.. have u heard there a roti canai or ceng teng in a wedding? hahah.. about this guy... he studied 5 yrs in university at australia.. get married with this chinese girl.. and both of them open up a bakery buisiness in singapore... cool huh..

about my bike practical.. I fail prac 5... yes just because i lost my balance and accidently step on the curb...hahaha.. i know.. i wasntg lucky... and its a immidiate failure.. yes.. everyone hates tht word...Im sad about tht.. bt never mind... this thurs, ill be taking again... and hope nothing goes wrong.. plsplspls

=]

2009-03-02T21:17:00.000-08:00

hmm i just pass my prac 4 after so many tries..3 tries actually.. so now its just more on doing revision before i continue to prac 5... pract 5 is about evaluation and we have to do everything in the circuit.. So i must master the plank and figure 8 =(

Now im goignt o mengaji i guess.. Tired lazy... after that have to go school... Demo climb. I dont what im suppose to do..

Revion tmr at 8.30 and also 10.15
yats revision is on 10.15 and 12.30
2 slots straight..
I dont think 2 revision would be enough=(

Campus Corner

2009-02-26T04:13:00.000-08:00

Bored Bored Bored.. I didnt go out the whole day today.. Im a good boy=]
Now im learning basic arab..hahaha...
eg. boy=walad

so if your fren is damn irritating.. instead of saying hes a boy.. just say walad =]

Hmm Ive changed skin again.. I think this is better...

Currently my bike practical is still at pract 4.. Im stuck at the plank hahahaa =]
theory test is on the 18..
I book my next prac on tues morning.. 8.45..
I think i have the confident to pass =]

Ive good a job for now.. Have not started.. Its a cityhall..
Campus Corner..
I think ill love it there.. shop closes at 8..hahah thts the best thing ive ever heard =]..
The manager is kind

So if I didnt train for my climb, Can I win?
Hhahah.. nvm not this time..
Need my recover and my time.. Now, winning is not i want..
I just want to complete all the problems..
Strong and graceful =]

Prac4

2009-02-21T22:26:00.000-08:00

I feel like wanting to go wake boarding.. or out to a chill place like phuket =[

For the mean while.. Im still ongoing my bike license.. im at prac 4.. my theory test is at 18 of much.. ill start mugging, maybe on wed? heh
Im aiming to pass by june.. It would be much easier for me to go school by then.. sick and tired of long and squeezy bus rides..

Hmm ill start searching for a job after boulderactice which is march 20..
so by june if a already have $2k...
I could afford to own a bike =]

and so..

2009-02-21T21:54:00.001-08:00

Yest, i survived the whole day by eating biscuits =]
Out of money =[

I found out one thing, fresh nurses who get to work in a emergency department earns $2k
If others would earn about $1.7k for a start..

Im like shit.. I should have chosen to be a nurse..hahahaha...
Ouh well.. My course is really not that bad..

Ive learn my mistakes and its time to improve from my weakness

2009-02-20T10:03:00.000-08:00

I still feel like quitting climbing...
This urge..
So that I would be free..
Not tied to one thing..
No more problems..
After this incident, i realise that you can only choose one..
To do something that you like or sacrifise it for someone else...

and hazlee saves the day

2009-02-20T08:55:00.000-08:00

I waited for your text...
Checking my phone for every 5 mins..
Nothing...
Every call received made me think that it was you..
Bt it was not..
I kept thinking about you..
Stoning all the way, i miss my stop a couple of times..
I just cant move on..

I went to asia alone.
Cant get in, minimum top up was $24..
I went down i saw hazlee..
I look at him climbing..
He made it look easy..
He help me out..
He gave me $20 credit..
after climbing for 3 hrs..
I went to dover with hazlee..
It was my first time...
there was no pressure...
just relax and learn...

Ipod

2008-12-21T07:38:00.000-08:00

hmm... tired tired tird..dont feel like talking...
Yes.. I want an Ipod for chrisma.. or bdae..hahha
Ipod classic, which cost about $398...
I got only $200.. still far..
Hmm.. giving up hope to buy it..

bad bad bad

2008-12-19T05:50:00.000-08:00

Busy busy busy.. yesterday after work, I rush to my cousins place at woodlands. which she is getting engage.. Went back to MP from work.. get change.. took cab all the way to woodlands.. it cost about $20

the shitty thing is, I was rushing and I forgotten to take my cap.. I left it in the cab..

Hmm this sun.. my cuz is getting married.. I have to help out in the vivo bazaar.. If i Dont turn up... CE points would be deducted.. I think I have to rush.. after the vivo thing ends.. Ill try to ask for an early leave...the ceremony would be held at woodlands..duration would be around.. 1-4... that fast..

The next day, monday, have to start working at raffles city, john little, till on the 4th of jan..
Im rushing to get all the stuffs.. Pants, shoes...
The bad thing is, theres no off day.. which means.. I would be working for 3 weeks straight.. No off day.. No social life...

That means.. I cnt spend time with her.. sigh

busy

2008-12-17T06:23:00.000-08:00

I just came back from work.. i went to this condo... soesnt look nice.. but when I enter this rich bastards house, it was amazing..
It was on the rooftop and every room have a LCD plasma tv...
It was huge...
Out side theres a foutain.. Theres alot of paintings..
the lights are not normal.. theres like 50 lightbulbs in one light holder.
Some artistic guy..

For the mean while, Im working from wed to sat...
So i cant attend training during those days...
For today I earn $70..
Feel like buying cigg..

2008-12-16T09:15:00.001-08:00

i need- $166 for the bag- crumpler or nike or timberland
$100 for sweater- nike or others
$85 for the jeans- top shop
$180 for the floorball stick
$250- testarossa climb shoes

aidi zaini

2008-12-16T07:49:00.000-08:00

Juraimi

2008-12-15T19:10:00.000-08:00

Congrats on my dearest cousin juraimi, on getting engage... Best wishes in the future...

Panther

2008-12-09T07:09:00.000-08:00

I made this.. looks cool huh....

2008-12-06T09:40:00.001-08:00

Bored bored

2008-12-06T09:19:00.000-08:00

Just bored in class..

then my fren put this hat on me..

Then i just wear..

Looks gay..

Some japanese culture stuff..

On that day is maths, So you know...

When your stress, you tend to do stupid stuff..

At least it cheer up the people in class..

They laugh, I told them..

So do I like the lead singer from panic at the disco..

They all laugh..

2008-12-01T22:10:00.000-08:00

Barbeque

2008-11-30T17:04:00.000-08:00

free time

2008-11-26T07:25:00.000-08:00

Reflections

2008-11-26T07:11:00.000-08:00

2008-11-23T22:06:00.000-08:00

Sentosa

2008-11-22T05:18:00.000-08:00

Been busy late..

Just now, i didnt go to training.

I went to sentosa with my classmates..

It was ok...

For the first time, I saw mike's whole face.

his hair didn cover at all..=]

he was wearing his cap.

Ill update the picture later.

I still havent buy my deodorent..

Its been more then a month.

My armpit smells during training..hahah

I know, it smells..

Good for you.. the smell gives you motivation and sucess

haha

Ok ok.. ill buy it tomorrow, i guess.

2008-11-14T00:09:00.000-08:00

Ive been eating less lately, like a girl. Maybe one or two meals.
I didnt ate anything at night.
Been busy lately, UT and training.
I went back and straight away sleep.
Around 11 or 12.
Today is maths and its a shit hole.
I didnt went for break. I was in class the whole day.
In the end, due to cheating method and understanding,
we complete it.
The key point is, understanding.
Im going to laugh at you when its your turn to do VB =)
Been through alot of mess lately.

2008-11-09T19:11:00.000-08:00

I already gave my sis a dress for her bdae gift..
Settle...
It cost $15 and I bought at some Rp push cart shop..
I saw La sportiva testarossa climb shoes and I gave it a try..
Its like wow... Pleasurising.. hahhahha
Its like the better version of Jet 7.
The down turn was extra extra times 10 with the best comfort ever made..
The laces made a better fitting.
Easy fitting.
Cost $250
Broken hearted.. costly shoes
Heng Yi brough that shoe.. Rich..hahaha

Injuries but no pain

2008-11-06T08:07:00.000-08:00

My right elbow is swollen.. I land on mu wrist again.. Great!!!
Still, my leg have blisters, still in pain when wearing the shoes, if I hit my leg, at the toe area, on the tile, even the slightest contact, I would be in pain.

Im getting of with harder routes. Still I could not do the one arm lock. Somebody, give me some of your mojo!!!

My mp3 player, the screen is down. Its now like an ipod shuffle. I have to guess the song that is playing.

best dress to fir

2008-11-04T17:24:00.000-08:00

climb max

2008-11-03T23:09:00.000-08:00

climb on

2008-11-03T17:40:00.000-08:00

Fatin

aaron

2008-11-02T05:09:00.000-08:00

Climb on was fun. compeleted about 22 routes. Afew bonus. The rest cant clom[ete. Some i can do it but just too tired. Some are like wow.. Some is easy but the wall is closed due to the rain.

chris lindner

2008-10-30T21:02:00.000-07:00

Injured

2008-10-29T04:56:00.000-07:00

I injured my hands. Both hands. My arm feels pain everytime i climb. Im like rest 30 mins then climb 1 time. Its that bad. I need my rest. Ive been climbing a week straight. I think its due to the way i fell. I fell landing at palm and also my elbow. Both attemps on the roof. The pain is that bad till. Even u bathe, u feel it. Bt its not that pain.

Im working as a belayer this sat.. I got a crew t shirt.hahahah yesss

2008-10-22T20:05:00.001-07:00

Lots of money but no money to participate. Whats this.. I need $20 pls cause i wanna join climb on and climb max.. pls pls

Im not myslef lately. I dont know why. Im like more quiet.. I guess its about the money.. Stress me up. I day dream alot lately. I cant react much. I never get angry. All i just do is keep quiet

So is this the reason why.. no money to climb? i guess im poor..

2008-10-20T22:39:00.000-07:00

horoscope

2008-10-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

My horoscope.

Your sharp intelligence will enables you to evaluate any situation, so trust it.

Hmm... i use stategy during the comp.. wierd horoscope.. its like realistic..

Climbaprix

2008-10-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

when your friend talks behind your back

2008-10-13T22:45:00.000-07:00

So this is the start of problems. Why people talk behind my back when they can talk to me and find the truth?

Thanks eh.... alot

to tell you the truth.. I only like her for one month then i gave up..

amir knows all about this as amir is the same class as her