Well certainly, I hate myself.. I trust someone very easily.. yet...
Sometimes, friends or family could just take that happiness away from you.. some isn’t intentional and some only concern about themselves.. Well greed could jeopardise

You know that you’re having a problem and then u found the truth.. guessing tht its going to be fine.. Well, a new one showed up.. well it linked to the past.. hes a fren.. He don’t have the intention so.. but that is he’s way.. n he’s way may change the result in the end... do you know that history may repeat.. but in a different way..

It’s scary to see you in that condition.. i feel helpless.. felt that what can I do.. I know nothing.. I could only be there by your side.. Only aidi and aidil knows everything.. Heartbeats n stuff.. i know only some basic stuff, what you shouldn’t do..

Well.. Aidi spot my weakest point.. well.. i was to about to give up.. Cause I’m too concerned about her.. Anything happens, ill be there.. this not from my brain.. its from my heart.. Well I shouldn’t be thinking so much and stuff.. but there’s too much challenges.. One after another.. N I knew nothing.. Clueless, so how am I going to react.. So what’s the first thing that comes to my mind?

a common word to hear.. Patience ... i needed that... had that patience in me for a long time.. That patience of my is fading.. Somehow.. I just don’t know why.. But it is.. Depending how and what situation it is..

Understanding? That’s not about it.. We just know part if the detail.. We have our own opinions too.. Well you should listen up and stop being such a thick head.. Well I’ve spot most of the things about you.. what are the ways and how you handle stuffs.. From what I see from it, it’s not such a big deal after all.. I guess, it’s just you and partly of hers..

At the end of the day, I’m still a nobody.. There’s no one I should trust... Not even myself.. I help them but they don’t help me due to favouritism.. Its normal.. cause I’m not that fun.. so that are not that close to me.. So when they have something special.. Which is limited, I guess I would be the last few to be invited.. don’t u dare say that well be there cause we are friends...when there’s a free ride,ull leave me walking to the mrt myself..

I’ll stick with.. Doing thing on my own.. Go to CA by myself.. Slack with my family.. n call aidi out..

Hate me for what I am..
I’m speaking out
Sarbelas at 10:35 PM