Behind Silence And Solitude

Im A Serial Anonymous

Monday, September 29, 2008

Hmm today climb, i set some difficult routes.. After that at im like putting back all tht stuff by myself.. only a few help.. fuckers like how chwen stand there and do nothing... useless shit.. this is not the first time.. im pissed of.. u can see that. that made me quiet the whole time in rc..

I ate mc flurry berries and cream. I doesnt taste nice but the picture made it look nice. In the end, im ok with it. the pasar malam at woodlands, closed down. No more corn drink. Noooo!!!!

No i dont have a jib.. i still need to get my shirt and jeans. Ill be hauting for it tomorrow i guess.



Friday, September 26, 2008









Thursday, September 25, 2008





Wednesday, September 24, 2008








Hmm. we break fast at the student lounge. Most of us go there with wearing shorts after rock climbing. We didnt know about this cause we were informed last minute. We were shy to enter the place. Everyone was wearing their baju kurung and their songkok. We are like slackers. In the end i saw some guy wearing short and girls wearing skirts. We were like ok, lets enter the place.
When i came back after dinner, i heard one of the floor baller shouted rock climbers pls go down from the wall to beat. I was furious about the. I was like want to go straight up to him. Luckily, i wasnt there.I never beat up a person before but since he insulted my coach, i might go haywire.
Other than that, hmm i sometimes i wanted to hang out with aarons friend but it seems like hes not inviting. Like he will say see how first. Hmm that is not a good word to hear. I guess i should be an extra a join his friends. I should go home and be a good little boy.
Im addicted to corn drinks.hahah. $2, i know its expansive bt it makes me sleepy. thats like wahhh..niceeee..



Tuesday, September 23, 2008




Movies to watch when ur bored in class or at home


Death Race

Heroes season 3 just came out.. So feel free to watch it online.. http://www.fubox.org/heroes

I miss my classmates. Marfie and serene. I miss disturbing everyone.Im still a social outcast in my class,Sem1 faci says , i talk too much.. must talk about relevent stuff and teach others to do the same.. Sem 2 fasi says, im too quiet, try to participate more in class..Hmm ive become anti social.. I guess im ok being a nerd in class.. Reminds me of my primary school.

So, do you believe that azmi is an introvert? =P

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Monday, September 22, 2008

hmm.. sometimes I didnt tell ppl tht im mix blood. I didnt know im mixed blood. So my father is a malay. my mum is javanese and granny is hindustan. So that makes me mly?

For the meanwhile. I met someone new yesterday. A new friend. Quite violent. Not as violent as zahirah. Shes fun. Aaron x-classmate.
Wierd thing is, she knows people from broadrick. syahmi, shakinah, farhan.

So.. that all so far that i know..

Next to it.. i disturb my classmate.. like some racist joke... bt the wierd thing is dhes not angry with me.. Bt she angry with my the other classmate...








Sunday, September 21, 2008












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Thursday, September 18, 2008

Im getting used to my class.. So its a good thing.


Sampoerna makes my day..

Aidil is moving on... the girl is pretty too..waahhahaha..

Good pick good job...



Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Ruckus Star"HW Long?..NT Loooong..Cos wat u REAP iS wat U SOW!!!!....MICROPHONE FIEND... says (10:31 PM):
niwae if kau isap rokok indon or malaysia.jaga2 wen isap kt woodland..especially in cosway...bnyak kastam arr....round..member aku aru kena 500!!

Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): kau
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): mampos
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): hahah
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): suey
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): okok
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): tanks
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): skg rokok sg
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): pasal aku hisap kretek
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): kalau contra pon kat umah
Ruckus Star"HW Long?..NT Loooong..Cos wat u REAP iS wat U SOW!!!!....MICROPHONE FIEND... says (10:32 PM):
hah!!!!
Ruckus Star"HW Long?..NT Loooong..Cos wat u REAP iS wat U SOW!!!!....MICROPHONE FIEND... says (10:32 PM):
tu lagik dnger...
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): haha
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): rumah jer
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): tk bawa kluar
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:32 PM): safe
Ruckus Star"HW Long?..NT Loooong..Cos wat u REAP iS wat U SOW!!!!....MICROPHONE FIEND... says (10:33 PM):
isap kt umah sua..kt luar...dnger sak....skarang bnyak hantu arr kt luar...
Ruckus Star"HW Long?..NT Loooong..Cos wat u REAP iS wat U SOW!!!!....MICROPHONE FIEND... says (10:33 PM):
haha
Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:34 PM): hahah
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Azmi - When Boredom Strikes says (10:34 PM): okok
























Sha left and got a hug from me. Infact, i hug him a couple of time. Thats the very first time time i gave him a hug through out his 18 yrs of knowing me. He suddenly shock and laugh i guess that left him deep in him and me. I told everyone to hug him. Jeannie . fatin , iffah even aidil hug him. Its been years girls hug him as hes single for quite a long time.

When he did lead climbing, he sang loudly.

Because NS. I could not climb forever
Because NS. I could not climb forever

I was laughing, but I almost cried too.I was belaying him. And i though him alot of stuff. I remembered the time where he watch the rock climbing movie, king lines. He was inspired to work hard and do his best in climbing. He kept saying he is Chris Sharma. Then say your name is sha and your fathers is istamar. So I could call you chris istamar. Everytime he answers the phone, he kept saying , hello, chris Sharma here. Doing routes and holding pocket tiles by using his middle finger shouting Sharma Sharma.

I remembered the time where I got 2nd for mini comp and he got 9th placing. He went back home and told my mum and aunt that im strong. I got 2nd placing and everyone was impress. He said he was jealous and everything. From there i did a little secret training. He followed but he did more. Everynight he did push ups without fail to improve in his climbing. He didn’t have the strength to climb from the start. He cant even do 1 pull up. Aidil though him everything and now hes getting better in climbing and he can do 12 pull ups. He improved alot and he can even win shafiq.

To think back, i would really miss him alot. Everytime we went back together, aidil, sha and me. We walk back home slowly, sat down one place and chat while smoking. We share our knowledge of climbing. What happen in life. We joke around. I could imagine sometimes he call me mimimimimi. Sha has always been there for me. Have fun and accompany me when i have problems. He also advise me alot of stuff.

At first, i intro him to rock climbing, I brought him to my school and ask him to try. I kept asking him to try but he sat down. I got irritated, i tell aidil hes afraid to climb, then aidil scold him. He got sick of me nagging at him, he climb. From there, i ask him to come more often and train with us, he was afraid that other people would criticize him that hes not schooling but he came to school to disturb and being an extra.

I told him we wont. We are fun people. From there, he met hidayat first then aidil and aidi then everyone. He now conclude that now poly people are Chill and friendly.We speak the same as him and not some high standard people.

He calls the drink katira as tequila. Hahaha. Aidil scold him i smack you than you know as your thinking of drinking such stuff during the month of Ramadan. Some people didn’t know that hes not from our school. Hes from Vocational Institute.. Well hes not good in English and he cant really read. Hes suffering from dyslexia. I made him climb to make him do something and not rott at home.

I promise him that if trains hard and reach to my standard. Or gets top 3 in mini competitions. I would buy him a new rock shoe. Ill still buy, so train hard in NS and youll get a new pair of rock shoe from me.



Monday, September 15, 2008

I guess some how this would all end. Maybe one would start saying all the wrong stuff and and would never forgive the other. This is how it goes in every dating life.I guess this is just another bad day.

Sha is entering his NS life. So i would lost my favourite cousin. So now i would be a little bit lonely. No one to talk to. Watch movie with. Hes entering tomorrow and i guess its left with me and aidil only. So does things happen for a reason? A balance in life? Bull shit.. Things happen is whether ur lucky enough or it just isn’t ur day. If it happens like every, ur sway..


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Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says (3:33 PM):
Sureena S. says:
dil..start from today, mkck aku ckp hold korang lu tau.. cos skrg org pagi yg keje smue bring to petang.. soo petang ade ramai org keje
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
huh
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
hold
Sureena S. says:
as in tkyah dtg lu.. furthermore korang ade comp to get ready.. beh mcm tk tentu
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
haha
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
mampos
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
kite nye comp cancel siol
Sureena S. says:
lol
Sureena S. says:
kental
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
serious
Aidil-MY LIFE IS ALL CLIMB says:
haiz
Sureena S. says:
hahaha
Sureena S. says:
but yeah, if dah ade space, nanti aku blang korang k

So i lost my job. I have no money no. NO money to buy tickets to watch Russell peters. Im like losing everything. I need a break. Its hard when in one day. Pooof** shit is falling all over u. This is not emo. This is unlucky.



Sunday, September 14, 2008

ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:47 PM):
mamat .
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:47 PM):
abg ako ghie NS taw .
a pendulum suspended in mid air says (2:47 PM):
bile
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:48 PM):
dier ghie tegok camp dier .
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:48 PM):
tadi .
a pendulum suspended in mid air says (2:48 PM):
bile masuk
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:48 PM):
org dier blg nari dier alek petang .
a pendulum suspended in mid air says (2:48 PM):
ok
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:48 PM):
abeh bsk dier kene masok alek .
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:48 PM):
bsk .
a pendulum suspended in mid air says (2:48 PM):
ok
ĶįĸĬεξ³ says (2:48 PM):
MP3 kao pat dier ,
a pendulum suspended in mid air says (2:48 PM):
ok











Im getting tired easily this days. Must be i slept late. Havent been fasting lately. I should start tomorrow onwards.
I wanna go drinking.hahaha. want to have.. wait till next month.
Life.. still going on. Theres up and down. U know
i guess i can handle it. nothing serious. if serious, im still smiling.
tmr is cognitive.
Fun faci..yesss =]



Friday, September 12, 2008





Thursday, September 11, 2008

my nick....

azmi died yesterday



Eiyra Rafiq said:
ure right
Eiyra Rafiq said:
azmi da mampos
Eiyra Rafiq said:
hahah
Eiyra Rafiq said:
okok
Eiyra Rafiq said:
aku lame
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I Wonder How He Still Alive When He Is Already Dead said:
read my dp
azmi died yesterday said:
eh eh eh
azmi died yesterday said:
hahahha



Aidil-SLeepyBloodydaY says (10:25 AM):
mati
Aidil-SLeepyBloodydaY says (10:25 AM):
aidil pun died yesterday

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What you said just now made me think a lot. After what you told me, I’m thinking of letting azmi give up on me. Though he sacrifices a lot for me and tries to cheer me up when I’m down or try his best to make my day better, and I appreciate what he has sacrificed for me, but I’m very scared that I will make him waste 3 yrs of waiting for me. Like what he said just now, he waited for one girl for 2-3yrs and in the end he got himself heartbroken. For now, I need a break from all the relationships. I don’t know how much time I need, but I really cannot get over my ex. I know azmi is very nice guy that many girls want him, so I don’t want to hold him back because of me. I want him to give other people a chance. He told me before that if I don’t accept him or anything, he won’t look for other girls because he said before I’m the last girl he will chase. I scared he really mean it. You said to give people a chance, but I scared if I give him a chance it will hurt him even more.



u say sometimes u need ur space
11/9/2008
11:27:48 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
ur space
11/9/2008
11:27:51 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
is wht u mean
11/9/2008
11:27:52 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
?
11/9/2008
11:27:59 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
like u need ur time alone
11/9/2008
11:28:01 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
i need space to be alone
11/9/2008
11:28:03 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
really alone
11/9/2008
11:28:11 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
ok
11/9/2008
11:28:17 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
like how long?
11/9/2008
11:28:25 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
i don't know
11/9/2008
11:29:12 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
hmm
11/9/2008
11:29:23 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i can give u abreak'bt not too long
11/9/2008
11:30:05 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
why?
11/9/2008
11:30:13 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
hmm
11/9/2008
11:30:20 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
cause
11/9/2008
11:30:26 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i scared anything wld happen
11/9/2008
11:34:45 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
u there
11/9/2008
11:35:21 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
wht ever it is
11/9/2008
11:35:32 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i think ur thinking something
11/9/2008
11:35:48 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
and i have a bad feeling
11/9/2008
11:38:24 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
i just need a break to be alone
11/9/2008
11:38:39 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
i don't know how long i'll take
11/9/2008
11:38:53 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
i don't want to give false hope
11/9/2008
11:39:07 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
ur not giving falsehope
11/9/2008
11:39:13 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
dnt think so much
11/9/2008
11:39:23 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
i think i am
11/9/2008
11:39:32 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
and it's me
11/9/2008
11:39:36 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
it's not you at all
11/9/2008
11:39:48 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
so don't always think that what you say is correct
11/9/2008
11:40:31 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
the more you think this way, the more disappointment you may get
11/9/2008
11:40:45 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
u want me to defend myself?
11/9/2008
11:40:57 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
u want me to get angry and not scared?
11/9/2008
11:41:39 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
its not me being dissapointed
11/9/2008
11:41:43 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
its u being scared
11/9/2008
11:41:50 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
not wanting to give it a try
11/9/2008
11:41:57 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
ur ur fear holding u back
11/9/2008
11:42:10 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
its ur em.otions palying around with u
11/9/2008
11:42:17 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
sometimes
11/9/2008
11:42:29 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
when i didnt do much... u get angry at me
11/9/2008
11:42:35 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i tried my best
11/9/2008
11:42:38 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
all th way
11/9/2008
11:42:43 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
eversince i met u
11/9/2008
11:42:46 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i tried
11/9/2008
11:42:50 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
hoping for the best
11/9/2008
11:42:56 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
and u afraid to give it a try
11/9/2008
11:43:19 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
u having no confidence
11/9/2008
11:43:27 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
giving a try wont hurt
11/9/2008
11:43:35 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
it never hurt
11/9/2008
11:43:42 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
even it last for 3 days
11/9/2008
11:43:44 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
its something
11/9/2008
11:43:50 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
back then
11/9/2008
11:43:59 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
aaron was hoping to get this
11/9/2008
11:44:00 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
girl
11/9/2008
11:44:07 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
even if its 3 days
11/9/2008
11:44:11 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
its something
11/9/2008
11:44:19 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
it would make him happy
11/9/2008
11:44:23 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
n he tried
11/9/2008
11:44:25 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
well
11/9/2008
11:44:29 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
u never think of tht
11/9/2008
11:44:34 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
all u scared
11/9/2008
11:44:39 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
if i wouldnt work out
11/9/2008
11:44:45 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
if u wld hurt my feeling
11/9/2008
11:44:50 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
it would hurt more
11/9/2008
11:44:53 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
cause i failed
11/9/2008
11:45:02 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
cause i cant even get to be with u
11/9/2008
11:45:07 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
not even one
11/9/2008
11:45:08 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
day
11/9/2008
11:45:19 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i will make another part of a history
11/9/2008
11:45:27 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
as i failed to chase another girl
11/9/2008
11:45:37 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
tht would make me give up in future
11/9/2008
11:45:41 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
stop everything
11/9/2008
11:45:45 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
cause im a failure
11/9/2008
11:45:49 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
if we tried
11/9/2008
11:45:53 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
if it failed
11/9/2008
11:45:59 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
im would be ok
11/9/2008
11:46:02 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
we tried
11/9/2008
11:46:10 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
but it didnt go well
11/9/2008
11:46:13 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
tht i understand
11/9/2008
11:46:29 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
every guy like me, aaron, aidil
11/9/2008
11:46:40 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
all hoping tht we have the chance
11/9/2008
11:46:48 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
to be with her
11/9/2008
11:46:58 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
all the sacrifices we made
11/9/2008
11:47:03 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
all the patience
11/9/2008
11:47:07 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
the commitment
11/9/2008
11:47:15 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
tht it will lead to some day
11/9/2008
11:47:19 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
to be together
11/9/2008
11:47:28 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
hoping for hte chance to come
11/9/2008
11:47:32 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
bt it never did
11/9/2008
11:47:37 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
all we hear is
11/9/2008
11:47:53 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
i cant move on
11/9/2008
11:48:08 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
bt we were always there to help u
11/9/2008
11:48:11 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
to cheer u up
11/9/2008
11:48:25 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
to give a shoulder to lean on
11/9/2008
11:48:35 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
but she never notice
11/9/2008
11:48:42 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
never
11/9/2008
11:48:57 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
she always thinks about her past and not her future
11/9/2008
11:49:10 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
the guy tht standing infront
11/9/2008
11:49:19 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
tht guy
11/9/2008
11:49:23 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
is like a shadow
11/9/2008
11:49:29 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
follows u
11/9/2008
11:49:33 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
bt never notice
11/9/2008
11:49:39 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
not one chance he get
11/9/2008
11:49:41 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
do u know tht
11/9/2008
11:49:45 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
evry single time
11/9/2008
11:49:49 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
we think about u
11/9/2008
11:49:53 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
not one moment
11/9/2008
11:49:57 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
if we had fun
11/9/2008
11:50:02 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
we never put aside
11/9/2008
11:50:07 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
we think about ur future
11/9/2008
11:50:10 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
how u feel
11/9/2008
11:50:14 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
we felt it too
11/9/2008
11:50:25 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
the way how u decide is wrng
11/9/2008
11:50:32 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
u think wht is bad
11/9/2008
11:50:37 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
is worst for us
11/9/2008
11:50:59 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
we cry in our hearts like babies
11/9/2008
11:51:13 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
end all ends like tht
11/9/2008
11:51:20 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
ppl saying ur a good guy
11/9/2008
11:51:23 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
n poof
11/9/2008
11:51:24 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
it ends
11/9/2008
11:51:27 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
tht hurts
11/9/2008
11:51:39 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
giving it a try
11/9/2008
11:51:44 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
could change everything
11/9/2008
11:51:55 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
at least theres a chance
11/9/2008
11:52:02 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
just stop everything
11/9/2008
11:52:03 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
maybe one day u would change
11/9/2008
11:52:08 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
just stop saying all this alreaedy
11/9/2008
11:52:13 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
at least 1%
11/9/2008
11:52:17 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
sigh
11/9/2008
11:52:18 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
imm going off
11/9/2008
11:52:19 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
bye
11/9/2008
11:52:24 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
im not meeting you tml morning
11/9/2008
11:52:24 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
tmr meeting?
11/9/2008
11:52:25 PM
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
azmi
nights
11/9/2008
11:52:28 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
nvm
11/9/2008
11:52:30 PM
azmi
[c=7][jeann06][/c] [c=0]crying out loud inside.. i wanna scream!![/c] i need a break to be alone..[]
nights





Fatin's says (12:10 AM):
wah azmi aku betok kesian kan kau arh
Fatin's says (12:10 AM):
aku ngan fatin dulu pon same...
Fatin's says (12:10 AM):
aku nak stead dier tak nak....
Fatin's says (12:10 AM):
dier pon tak leh lupe kan ex dier
Fatin's says (12:11 AM):
i noe how u feel
Fatin's says (12:11 AM):
just chill.... forget about it for awhile....
Fatin's says (12:11 AM):
she will come back to u...
Fatin's says (12:16 AM):
k lah aku gtg.....
Fatin's says (12:16 AM):
bye.... don wprry too much








Wednesday, September 10, 2008

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abang berg
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haha...
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yar,....
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guess who i am...
chikako チカコ the internet gurus W16R
LOL
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hu u??
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brenda rite...
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nope
chikako チカコ the internet gurus W16R
iffah
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huh...
chikako チカコ the internet gurus W16R
shafiqah
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huh
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im the girl who put flowers by ur door step
chikako チカコ the internet gurus W16R
ur my eye candy baby
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huh...
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lost..
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i saw u lead yesterday
chikako チカコ the internet gurus W16R
n u were hot
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wow
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huh??
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hu r u??
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im the girl of ur dreams
chikako チカコ the internet gurus W16R
u make me horny baby
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wads all dis....
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i love ur rock pillar shoes
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or boreal
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ehk...
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hw u noe..............
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im a stalker
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azmi lah
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pisang...
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ko samer class dgn member aku....
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yup



Tuesday, September 9, 2008

i bought this.. theres this yr3 people selling... then they say... "we went every class and they were screaming we are fasting"

i told them whats with the theory.. we can keep it till 7 and break fast..
i bought one.. actually the bigger one cost $3... since its not sellable they sold me for $2
I cant imagine how am i going to survive with people like this.. This is for the yr 3 project.. i help them hoping infuture people wld help me.. =]



Monday, September 8, 2008

today im impress with jeannie. She can do 1 mens pull up on ur own. quite shocking. i see a future beatrice infront of me.=]

so dont stop climbing. this is what ur good at. in 3 months time. ull be able to flash routes.




hmmm
about me and jeannie is like up up down up down down down up
wierd.
bt its normal.
she keep thinking about she fat and all that
nothing to worry about.
she scared about having muscle all that.
to me ur never fat. not once.
hmm. no matter what condition u are.
ill still love u as what you are.
no matter how much u beat me.
no matter how much words u say that hurt me.
my feelings wont change.
this is just the way it is
are are what you are.
so dont change yourself cause its different.

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Today.. is okok... nothing much.. bored... stone... thinking to much... me and jeannie didnt go well today.. i guess.. tmr would be ok.. hope so... i did my presentation quite fast.. like poof.. read and give one example... hmmm one of my classmate literally didnt do anything for the whole day.. totally nothing.. not even discussing or giving an ear to listen... so ill take that a disagree for u in ur evaluation...hahah.. people like u.. steal As from real hardwork... i like my faci today.. his wife is 5 years older than him.. thts y he git her.. cause hes fun... =].. bt i dont know ur name.. bt i like ur attitude... thanks...

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Thursday, September 4, 2008

Im not not myself this days.. Im not getting along with my class... im more quiet.. im no longer a joker... im a mute.. so how...? hmm need a good problem statement to make my day...

When im not in the mood... I got angry for awhile..
When jeannie is not in the mood... Its like shes choking u... Or taking a knife and stabbing ur heart violently..hahah



Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Jean. says:wats e %age of wantin n not wantin upon 100%?
[jeann06] crying out loud from the inside.. i wanna scream!! confused and scared.. [STUDYING] says:is like 50 50 one
Jean. says:wah sai!
Jean. says:tell u wat..
Jean. says:trust me this time.
Jean. says:give him another chance??
Jean. says:one and last one
Jean. says:final. if really dun wrk out. i'll ask him to leave u oso.
Jean. says:dun wana see both of u sad.
Jean. says:until now i can still see tat he still loves u alot. ALOT!
Jean. says:give him another chance.trust me..ok?
[jeann06] crying out loud from the inside.. i wanna scream!! confused and scared.. [STUDYING] says:i don't know
[jeann06] crying out loud from the inside.. i wanna scream!! confused and scared.. [STUDYING] says:i scared everything will be like what happened in the past
Jean. says:if u nv try how u noe it'll not wrk out well?
Jean. says:maybe its better den b4?
[jeann06] crying out loud from the inside.. i wanna scream!! confused and scared.. [STUDYING] says:im just scared
[jeann06] crying out loud from the inside.. i wanna scream!! confused and scared.. [STUDYING] says:the fear of what happened in the past
Jean. says:u got to overcome it.even not w wenhao. u still nid to overcome it and be w other r/s in future wat?
Jean. says:can see u still like wenhao. y not overcome it.try it out once again and see how it goes?Jean. says:maybe its better this time round?Jean. says:


yup.. the end is near.. i guess.. jeannie and me.. our chapter is about to end.. close book...
just like that i lost her..
trying to help her in the end i failed..
i also failed to get her...
my feelings are true..
what weve done, what weve learn..
the new things we expreiece...
all this will be kept in memories..
im willing to let u go..
a rather sacrifice rather than keeping it for myself..
i gues this is the only way that would make u happy..

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Monday, September 1, 2008

hmmm.. yesterday's the past... tmr's the future... we wouldnt know what exactly would happen if we never give it a try.. sometimes, we just have gamble our way through.. cause it might turn out good.. we have to learn from out mistakes and make sure theres no dream breakers that wants to take away everything from us..

when feelings take over.. it maybe good or bad.. when the bad takes over... ull lose everything.. when u get back to yourselves you would regret that u lost your love ones.. It had happened to me.. so hope u wont to do same.. thinking to much would help as you would only make assumptions.. anything could happen in future.. just have to think optimisticly...




hmm.. promblems again... me and my sis problem is settled..now jeannie.. hmm now she like idk.. i dont quite understand.. shes afraid to like someone.. hmm.. its like we are close..then not close then close... bt the saddest thing i heard is.. i got a strong feeling that we wouldnt be together... hmm she wants me ot treat her as friend friend... that hurts.. after much thing ive sacrifise.. is like gone to waste.. she got like a slpit personality.. everytime changes.. hmm..i want her happy mood.. only tht time.. is the only time tht she loves me...

second prob.. shas mom.. just got the letter from IMH.. thts bad enough.. she suffering from too much pressure and stress.. thats y u see sha like not in the happy mood.. and sometimes me too..

so i hope u understand when im quite.. its not emo.. its just tht we need time to think.. to solve our own problems..






:Azmi:
16 january 1989
Republic Poly (Aerospace Avionics)
azmi is quiet and humble
azmi is not a typical guy
azmi is very open minded if he knows u
azmi is very random most of the times
azmi has got MANBOOBS
ppl call me a wierdo & even outspoken
i rather be myself than being cool
mini coopers are like wow..
I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room.
azmi_iceman@hotmail.com

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    A Brand new Rock Shoes
    Oakley shades
    chaco Z2 sandles
    complete my bike license
    owned a bike
    Go to krabi
    go to camp5
    New HP
    An Open Catogary Climber

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